Maybe it was my compulsive marathon napping yesterday, but I was hit hard with insomnia last night. No matter how hard I tried to focus my thoughts and relax, my train of thought just kept leaping from one insane subject to the next. It felt like the gentlest marijuana high imaginable, or perhaps a really average unmedicated ADD day. Surreal. Regardless, I fell into a sleep in which I dreamed vivdly and woke up before my alarm feeling incredibly energetic and refreshed.
This feeling of energy persisted until about 4pm, when I left work and realized I had neglected to eat anything all day aside from two cups of hot tea. Instead of a hunger headache, I just felt squirmy and my brain was transfixed on mathematical calculations involving calories, my BMR, and fat loss. They weren’t the type of thoughts like, “I should starve myself more often to lose weight!” They were just compulsive numbers running through my head, mental math that I usually hate, decimal points and commas and hypotheticals.
The feeling of energy still hasn’t left me. My thoughts have quieted a little, but I feel like I just woke up still (in a good way). Maybe all of this is made up, just a placebo effect from a tiny barely there dosage of a totally non-psychadelic drug, but perhaps it’s real. Either way it’s all in my head.